For educational purposes, the immediate theme of this blog is related to animals. So tonight, in a dubious sort of compliance with the rules, I want to say a few words about a rodent. The topic of this post is one that cuts very deep, and has had me seething for about three days. It has derailed my brain-train on its track of focus, and I think that by getting this out in the open it's going to help the inner-me tremendously with getting my mind back on the goals that I've set for this summer. But before I explain any more, I need to guide whomever reads this on a short trip down memory lane. It won't take long, but it's necessary, so that I can frame this in the proper context.
Of all the rooms in my memory palace, the one that I know most intimately, is my aid station in Mosul. In the blink of the eye, I can be right there. I can smell the air in the room. I can taste the dust. I can feel the floor beneath my feet. I can hear the whirring motor of the full size, glass door pepsi refrigerator, where I kept my rip its; near-beers, vaccines and cold compresses. I can see my desk; my shelves fully stocked with all different types of oral and topical medicines; my talon II walk kits stacked in a dusty pile against the wall, and I can see the two straight pole litters; placed on top of their stands like a dirt poor doctor's exam tables. I know every centimeter of this space. I had filing cabinets too.
These filing cabinets were filled with lists; numbers; names, and tasks. In fact they still are, and I still use them. I use them to store faces, places, experiences, birthdays, shopping lists, and even emotions sometimes. The things that I store in that room today, are finally getting some air, and it's because I'm remembering all the people who I'm never going to see again. There are people in there who I miss terribly; most of them living, and a few who are not. When we were all together, in Desperado Troop, I knew every single one of their names, and they all knew me just the same. Whenever they had a weird pain in the knee bothering them; they'd come see me. When they were due for shots; they came to see me. Something really heavy on their minds that they needed to talk it out; they'd come talk to me. If they wanted to hang out at the aid for a few minutes to shoot the breeze, and get out of the sun, they knew where to go. We rolled out of the gate together, and we all came back together. I think you get the point by now.
I open the door to this section of the palace, and they're all still in there; just hanging out. The memories of this room allow me to commune with them, and I do, at some point every day. Another memory I seem to have hung on to, was being at my desk week-after-week, and I'd crack open the Army Times.
Not giving a damn about any of the articles, ads, and news; I'd flip straight to the back of the publication each time-- where the KIAs and MIAs were listed; mostly to check on my old buddies from Basic and AIT. Nothing was more dreaded than seeing a name that I recognized listed on that page. I clearly remember the feeling; the same every time; a heaviness on my heart when I read Bowe Bergdahl's name listed as MIA. I recognized his name well from over the course of time. There weren't any rumors about him that had made it to my neck of the woods. There was no twisted back-story behind his disappearance. As far as I, or anyone else around me knew; he was a PFC, who had the abysmal luck of being captured by the enemy while on patrol in the Stan.
The Army does not leave its people behind. American POWs are something of a sacred entity to the people in the ranks. Little did we know in the Iraqi theatre; that this little MF shipped all of his personal property home, shot off a few e-mails about his inclinations and intention to desert his post, and he slipped out in the dead of night; into the arms of the enemy. Deserter, defector, traitor. Six guys died in four different IED dets, except SSG Curtiss, in the search for this rat. Their names were 2Lt Daryn Andrews; SSG Clayton Bowen; SSG Kurt Curtiss; SSG Michael Murphy; PFC Morris Walker, and PFC Matthew Martinek. The worst part about this is that Bergdahl probably doesn't even give a F%@&, and the lives these men mean nothing to him. These people are dead, and he may as well have placed the IEDs himself. They haven't yet officially released the number of troopers who became casualties due to the secondary, and tertiary effects of his desertion, but there is a full-bird Colonel who told Bill O'Reilly that the number is fourteen.
And what do you know! There are political implications for Washington; the kind that leave a shroud over the whole truth of things-- lest it come out to threaten the comfort of the political bastards who play with the lives of real people on both sides of the fight. A fight that many believe, including myself, was bungled into; mishandled during, and is grievously in need of redress after its uncertain conclusion. Not a damn soul with less than an eight or nine digit figure in his or her bank account knows when (or if) that will be. But from what I'm hearing as far as Bergdahl is concerned, while there may be some minor consequence for his actions, he's such a political darling at the moment for the administration; that he may not be punished at all. After all, think about all the hell that
he's been through over the years
.
http://www.thegatewaypundit.com/2014/06/col-david-hunt-we-lost-14-soldiers-searching-for-deserter-bergdahl-video/
http://www.thedailybeast.com/articles/2014/06/02/we-lost-soldiers-in-the-hunt-for-bergdahl-a-guy-who-walked-off-in-the-dead-of-night.html
http://www.foxnews.com/politics/2014/06/02/pentagon-to-look-into-allegations-soldiers-killed-effort-to-recover-bergdahl/